It’s past midnight and here I am typing up a new blog post (this one actually ;)). Typical. My bedtime normally seems to hit about 1:30am, despite my best efforts to make it to bed earlier. I’ll wake for my daytime job around 6:00 am and rush out the door at lightning speed. After a decision filled day at work, I’ll attempt to catch up with family, make dinner & organize for the next day. Lately, however, I’ve been investigating graduate school programs as well. I’m excited to think of the possibilities with that (though I must be crazy to add a little more to my schedule). That said, I can safely say I would much rather be busy than bored. Thankfully, I never really have time to grow bored.
Truth be told, it seems as though my creativity is stifled until long after the sun goes down and the coyotes begin howling their nightly song at the moon (I do live in the country after all). Perhaps it’s because I need to decompress from the day a little first. Perhaps it’s that the quiet soothes my mind and invigorates me. Regardless, no words seem to flow from my fingertips until this point of night. At that, sometimes they’re incredibly stubborn when attempting to form on paper and pull every fiber of my thought process to create. Such is tonight.
You see, I’ve always been the perfectionist at heart. It’s the best quality and the worst all wrapped up in the same glorious package. Sometimes, when you untie the package’s ribbon, it’s beautiful. Other times, it will frustrate the hell out of you. That’s what creating posts can sometimes feel like for me. Sometimes, when I begin a post it flows so well and my perfectionist inner workings cheer….it’s like opening a beautiful package. Other times, I stare at the screen for hours searching every facet of my brain for inspiration only to end with a post that I refuse to hit publish on because it’s rubbish in my mind. You see, I made a promise to myself this year that all posts would have some sort of meaning. I decided that I would let you all in a little more…Show you who I am and actually give you posts that would inspire you, educate you, or make you smile. In all realities, it would be glorious if I just spent all day on this and worked solely on blogging. However, that’s not the case, nor do I think I want it to be. That being said, sometimes, just sometimes, (perhaps in part due to a slightly chaotic schedule) it’s difficult to think of topics you all might love to read about. I need your input. What posts would you all love to read??? Comment here, email me or send me a message on Instagram. I’m all ears. I would love to ensure that I’m creating quality posts that you all actually want to read. After all, while this is somewhat therapeutic for me & I adore using my creativity in every post, it’s worth writing so much more when you all enjoy it too! So, once again, what posts do you want to read?